"Oye whats your IIM result? Grr you haven't replied to a single message since your interviews began. you don't need to fear others' expectations all that much my friend." That was the SMS I sent to a very good friend of mine (lets call him A for the purpose of this post) when a common friend (call him P) told me that A had been offered admission by IIM Ahmedabad.

Okay so the last time I made a decent post was way back in December sometime. I did put up 'Ignore This Post" after that, but I guess everyone simply ignored it (Hey, but I cant complain about it!).

Coming back to the topic - some IIMs have declared their results, and the rest will declare theirs soon enough. Now my friend A got thru into IIM Ahmedabad (I, and indeed our entire gang, expected him to get thru actually) and tried to give me a call to inform of his selection. Thanks to Mumbai's congested networks (is there ANYTHING which is not congested in Mumbai?) the call never reached me, and I got the news from P.

This is where something interesting happened. I, despite knowing that A would CERTAINLY have tried to contact me, was hit with a sudden and strange pang of (actually I still dont know what feeling it was ... ) possessive-ness perhaps - in the sense that I expected A to get thru, and I expected the news to come directly from him. And having been hit by this 'pang' I sent him the SMS which forms the opening quote of this post.

Sure enough, A replied and explained what I already thought would have happened. However, the entire sequence of events left me wondering at just how distrustful of people I have become during the last one year. It sort of brought forth the fact that I have let myself fall into the once-bitten-twice-shy trap.

It is indeed true that some people whom I used to trust with my life, were revealed to be major liars during the last one year. At the same time, it is also true that I need to stick to reality. One stabbing in the back doesnt mean everyone is untrustworthy. I do hope I get back to being my old self soon.

Amen!

And yeah, if and when you read this, please accept my sincere apologies, A.